i am crabby

why, you ask? well for one thing i am crabby because i am over budget by $0.24 for february. this is the result of several expenses this month. first i had to go to dinner at pigall's before it closed. it's the only 4 star restaurant in ohio and it closed yesterday. clearly i had to eat there. i actually budgeted for it... my monthly eating out budget is $190, and i saved up $130 of that for pigall's. but my dinner actually ended up costing $132. boo.

the other reason i am having problems with my budget is that i don't really have any room in it for unexpected expenses. this month i had to buy new trash cans (both of mine broke... they were those stupid foot press kind), a big tablecloth for a new table that i got donated from friends who were upgrading theirs (new tablecloth is much less expensive than a new table), and i decided to stock up on my face lotion which was on sale at target.

my face lotion is a huge pain in my ass. it is this aveeno brand shit that costs like $14. it pisses me off but i have tried all kinds of other cheap face lotions and they either cause a mild allergic reaction or else they are super greasy. it's the only one i like and i just can't do without it. yet every time i have to buy it, it fucks my budget over. i also went to trader joe's and stocked up which was another assault to my budget.

the upside is that i am spending much less overall on entertainment and eating out (in normal months where i don't go to 4 star restaurants) than i planned. so therefore even though i went way over my $50 household goods/toiletries/etc. budget for the second month in a row, i am still only $0.24 over for the month. so i guess it is ok as long as i am making up for it in other areas? and seriously i am not buying anything i don't need.

the other thing that is making me crabby is that just now i was on facebook looking at my friend mary ellen's pictures from her trip to madrid. i love madrid and went twice while i was in college. and i was thinking to myself how i am so sad because there is no way i am going to europe any time soon. absent some kind of miracle, the absolute soonest i could go there would be 4 years from now when i have paid off my credit cards and saved up some cash.

and then i was like "fuck this credit card debt, what did i spend all that money on anyway?" and i realized that one of the things i racked up credit card debt on was... trips to madrid. fuck me! i can't go to madrid now because i am still paying off trips i took to madrid almost ten years ago. bleah... i hate my debt and i am so crabby right now.